Lord, you are so dealing with me....Submit every thing I mean every thing....I am trying,,,trying to yield to your calling. Yet, I confess I am not always in your shadow...I jump out and saying don't you know I'm here....Then I remember Duh, God knows everything...I am the one that is short sighted...Lord God almighty...I am to a point in my life I have given alot of who I thought I wanted to be...But I am afraid, you will exspect so much I cat imagine who I will be...I have no concept of what is to come or what you want of me....But your Word says you have a plan for my future, plans of hope plans not to harm me! But I have been harmed and broken and I fear what's to come...I know fear is not of you and that I can trust you ....But how, how can I when I don't trust myself....I here what I write and I am lacking in Faith...So I need to shrink back in to your shadow and call out Abba Father I need you once again...when will I trust and obey, Lord, I am frail but Your mercies are new every morning Please help my unbelief.